On Trust and your Sadhana
Some words to ponder as you start reflecting on the year that’s drawing to a close, and as you begin to look ahead to the next year. I’ve never been one to make New Year’s resolutions, but I always relish quiet time at the end of the year. From Ram Dass in Living the Bhagavad Gita (pages 240-245):
If you have any doubts about whether you should be doing a practice, stop doing it. If you have any misgivings about doing sadhana, if there is any question in your mind as to why you are doing it, stop. Go back and live your life just the way you lived it before … you ever meditated or prayed, before you knew anything about all of this nonsense. Go and live exactly as you did, and forget this whole meshuga business. And then watch what happens. Watch the way you are drawn by some inner thread to open a spiritual book and read a few passages, or to sit quietly and watch a candle flame.
… We keep thinking we have to get behind ourselves and push, when all the time we are actually being propelled full speed ahead. When we see that, we recognize that sadhana isn’t something we do to get ourselves somewhere; it’s something we do to get ourselves out of the way, so we can stop being obstacles to the process.
… My final suggestion for a strategy of sadhana is this: Trust the dharma. Trust it, even if you feel at some ego level that you’re shucking yourself a bit. It’s very helpful to our sadhana if we can start looking at the laws working around us and upon us as benevolent. Notice that I don’t mean benevolent as “nice”, in the sense of something that’s trying to keep our ego happy or even trying to keep us alive. I mean something that’s benevolently guiding us through our karma — that is, something that’s benevolent because it’s helping us to awaken.Advertisements